For most of us, the new year signals a fresh start. Alicia Amin (full name: Raja Alicia bt Raja Amin) took to her personal Instagram yesterday (Monday, 1st January) to share one of the darkest moments in her life that took place in 2017.

The controversial and outspoken Malaysian model, who rose to a new level of superstardom thanks to her participation in last year’s “Asia’s Next Top Model” season 5, once attempted to end her own life.

Source: Instagram

You can read Alicia’s full reflection here:


Early 2017 I woke up in a psych ward and had to stay for one week because i attempted suicide and failed. I have never spoken about this, ever.

This was after I filmed ‘AsNTM’ but no one knew, before I had finished moving home from Melbourne and before I learnt that standing up for myself and things I believe in would inspire so many others who felt like they were in the dark. 6 months later I took this photo in Pulau Tenggol and learnt how difficult underwater photography is.

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I will not promise you that everything works out the way you want it, because life is unpredictable. We all go through different hardships, different demons but I do urge you to hold on just a little longer, allow yourself a few more mistakes and say yes to all the love you can before you even think of giving up. You will be surprised how much a little faith, forgiveness and kindness from yourself to yourself will help everything get better

I’m welcoming 2018 with more travels, rainforest and ocean kind – keep an eye out for the vlogs! I will keep telling netizens that women have rights, that we should love our tanned skin and that every body is beautiful- tekcik or mokmok. Happy New Year everyone! Let’s smash 2018 #ItGetsBetter

If this role model can come out of a depressing situation stronger than before, so can you 😉


For fans wanting to check out her vlogs, click on her YouTube page here.

Source: Alicia Amin’s Instagram.

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