Turning 24 was a turning point for Selena Gomez.
Shortly after her gig in Jakarta, Indonesia last Friday (22nd July), which was also her birthday, the singer took to Instagram to share a very cryptic message about making some major changes to her life and career as it stands currently.
The screenshot message from her iPhone notes app reads: “Tonight I felt extremely unauthentic, unconnected to both myself and my music. I’ve never really felt like my materials, wardrobe or a video could define me. I act on a moment and fear something that hasn’t happened. I’m stagnant, I stay still and don’t just sit with myself first and ask ‘is this where I am, whole heartedly?’ I’ve always told the truth. I’m always true to my word, I’ve shown who I am but I need to rethink some areas of my life creatively and personally. Had to get that out.”
The pop star assured her Indonesian fans in a caption that they were not part of the issue, saying, “Not being negative about anything I’ve done. I’m grateful for every single moment I get here – Indonesia you were LOUD and clearly inspiring. Love you so much.”
Although Gomez’s message was clearly heartfelt, it left most of us scratching our heads, wondering what she meant and what happened that night to make her feel this way?
Maybe it has been a combination of events leading up to this. Her best friend, Christina Grimmie, was fatally shot after her performance in Orlanda. Just last week, Gomez received a Twitter backlash for defending her BFF Taylor Swift after Kim Kardashian outed the “Shake It Off” singer on Snapchat over the “Famous” lyrics drama.
Gomez was seen tearing up onstage before she introduced one of her encore songs, “Kill Em With Kindness”. “The next song, before I go home, is a song that’s so important to me. Because I get really frustrated. I get stupid sometimes. I say things that I don’t mean, or that come out wrong just because I care so badly,” she told the Indonesian crowd.
She continued, saying, “But the thing is, at the end of the day, no war in anger was ever won. I do know that deep down in my heart that I have to believe that we can love each other and always be kind no matter what it takes in us. I believe that we can do that, no matter what.”
Selena talking to the crowd in Jakarta. pic.twitter.com/2mMqbpv1Gp
— Diana (: (@dicristii) July 23, 2016
The 24-year-old singer is currently in Kuala Lumpur for her “Revival” tour despite the recent protest by PAS Youth. Regardless of what’s going on in Gomez’s life, we hope that she’ll soon be able to get some much needed rest to rejuvenate herself.
As for all you Selenators who are attending her concert at Malawati Indoor Arena, have fun tonight ;)