Drugs, alcohol and food – Demi’s Worse Nightmare
American singer and actress Demi Lovato recently admitted that everyone would be shocked to find out about her drug and alcohol stories but the 21-year old has finally gathered the courage to open up about some of her darkest days.
“Something I’ve never talked about before, but with my drug use I could hide it to where I would sneak drugs. I couldn’t go without 30 minutes to an hour without cocaine and I would bring it on airplanes,” the “Skyscraper” singer confessed in a candid interview with Access Hollywood. “I would smuggle it basically and just wait until everyone in first class would go to sleep and I would do it right there. I’d sneak to the bathroom and I’d do it.”
When she was 18-years old, the Disney star who is now sober and leads a healthy lifestyle, withdrew from the Jonas Brothers’ Live in Concert tour in October 2010 to get checked into rehab for physical and emotional issues. The star also admitted that she was reluctant to accept help from others.
“That’s how difficult it got and that was even with somebody [with me],” Lovato continued, recalling the severity of her addiction. “I had a sober companion, somebody who was watching me 24/7 and living with me [and] I was able to hide it from them as well.”
Demi continued to live her life that way, until she hit rock bottom at the age of 19.
“I was going to the airport and I had a Sprite bottle just filled with vodka and it was just 9 in the morning and I was throwing up in the car and this was just to get on a plane to go back to L.A. to the sober living house that I was staying at…I had all the help in the world, but I didn’t want it,” she revealed on Monday, Dec. 9, from the set of the X Factor. “When I hit that moment I was like, it’s no longer fun when you’re doing it alone. I’ve really never talked about this stuff before…I don’t know if I should be sharing this.”
It was after that incident that the singer realised she had a problem and decided to turn her life around.
“I think at 19 years old, I had a moment where I was like, ‘Oh my God…that is alcoholic behavior. [It’s] no longer, I’m young and rebellious and out having fun, it was, wow, I’m one of those people…I gotta get my s–t together,'” she explained.
Lovato, who also previously admitted to being bipolar, has openly talked about her past use of cutting as a way to cope with things. She also shared her struggles with an eating disorder which all began before was even a teenager.
“It was always there, but then I just acted on it at around 8 or 9 years old,” she revealed. “I started overeating, compulsively overeating. I would bake cookies and then eat the whole pan. I went from doing that to being unhappy with my body. I went to just completely starving myself and that turned into throwing up and starving myself and it was just this crazy battle going on inside of me. It got really difficult [and] I would throw up and it would just be blood and it was something that I realized if I don’t stop this, I am going to die.”
Dianna, Demi’s mother, also took part in the interview and admitted that some of Demi’s struggles were stemmed from her own issues. She admitted to having suffered from a terrible eating disorder and severe depression, but fortunately, after seeking help, the mother-daughter duo is now stronger and closer than ever.
“I’m so…proud of her it makes me so happy,” Demi said of her mother. “I love her so much.”
Demi had recently released her first book, Staying Stong: 365 Days a Year, which shares her struggles ranging from addiction to depression, all the while on a search for self-discovery and happiness.