For the first time in a long time, usually private superstar Beyoncé dishes out on her life and reveals her most intimate (whether happy or sad) moments in her new HBO documentary, “Life Is But a Dream”. Although she is now a proud Mama to an adorable daughter and wife to rapper Jay-Z, motherhood wasn’t the easiest road for her.

In the documentary, Beyoncé revealed:

About two years ago, I was pregnant for the first time. And I heard the heartbeat, which was the most beautiful music I ever heard in my life. “I picked out names. I envisioned what my child would look like…I was feeling very maternal. Something went wrong early in the pregnancy. I flew back to New York to get my checkup – and no heartbeat. Literally the week before I went to the doctor, everything was fine, but there was no heartbeat.


Although Beyoncé held back from detailing exactly when she suffered her loss, she did say how she dealt with it eventually by adding, “I went into the studio and wrote the saddest song I’ve ever written in my life. And it was actually the first song I wrote for my album. And it was the best form of therapy for me, because it was the saddest thing I’ve ever been through.”

We don’t know what the song is called or if it even made the final cut for her album, but what we do know is that Jay-Z, too, made a reference to their tragic loss in “Glory”. It’s the part where he raps:

Last time the miscarriage was so tragic,

We was afraid you’d disappear,

But nah baby you magic.

Well, for what it’s worth, Beyoncé’s happy ending finally came on 7th January 2012 when she and Jay-Z welcome beautiful baby girl Blue Ivy Carter.


We can’t be any happier for the trio.


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