American rapper and actor Kid Cudi (real name Scott Ramon Seguro Mescudi) has checked himself into rehab for depression after suffering for years from anxiety and suicidal thoughts.
The 32-year-old recording artiste made the difficult decision to post up an official statement on his Facebook page earlier this week.
In his post, he said that he felt ashamed and that he has been having suicidal urges because he’s not at peace. Kid Cudi also called himself a damaged human swimming in a pool of emotions every day of his life, adding that there’s a raging violent storm inside of his heart at all times.
“I don’t know what peace feels like. I don’t know how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it,” he wrote.
“I deserve to have peace. I deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I think I never really knew how. I’m scared, I’m sad, I feel like I let a lot of people down and again, Im sorry. It’s time I fix me,” he explained.
Read his Facebook statement in full below:
This is not the first time that Kid Cudi has openly spoken about his struggles with depression as well as alcohol and drug addiction. He previously discussed his addictions with the fix and admitted that he was an alcoholic. And in 2010, he told MTV about his substance abuse, particularly cocaine and marijuana. It was a problem that he said was triggered by having to deal with fame.
“I couldn’t deal with fame, short and simple. For me, I could not wrap my head around the fact that a week before I blew up, I was just a regular dude, and a week after, it was just on, it was a whole other thing. When I first started getting recognized in the street it was cool, ’cause it wasn’t extreme, it was just like, ‘Oh man I like your music. Could I take a picture?’ It was chill. But then, when it started to be everywhere I went, it was hard for me because I never wanted to make that adjustment,” he revealed.
He also claimed to have been able to quit his addictions without clinical help (read: rehab) because he didn’t “believe in these things”.
As an actor, Kid Cudi has appeared on both the big as well as small screen and his filmography includes “Need for Speed” (2014), “Entourage” (2015), as well as an episode of “One Tree Hill” (2010). An an artiste, he has released a total of 5 solo albums to date, the latest being “Speedin’ Bullet 2 Heaven” in 2015. His 6th album, “Passion, Pain & Demon Slayin'” was initially scheduled for release in September.
Kid Cudi also has quite an impressive list of awards and nominations for his work.
Source: Kid Cudi’s Facebook page.