Almost everyone has heard of internet personality MsPuiyi aka Siew Pui Yi. She made waves earlier this year with her debut as a singer and appearance on the Penthouse cover. Additionally, her bold posturing on her socials has got society’s eye trained on her.
However, beneath the flawless skin and startling personality lies a very different girl than the one most are used to. Yesterday (24th April), Puiyi allowed fans a glimpse beneath the surface and offered people a chance to know her a bit better.
Unlike her usual Facebook posts which can be rather suggestive, her recent post was more personal. Puiyi touched on several sensitive subjects and shared her experiences. She hoped to inspire others who were and are going through similar things. Puiyi stated that although she seemed fine, she had actually been struggling since July 2021. However, she decided to change that this April by visiting a psychiatrist. According to Puiyi, she was then diagnosed with anxiety and depression. “It’s not a surprise,” she admitted. “I (have) known about this since high school, but I (have) never been brave enough to admit it.”
Puiyi added that she accredited much of her emotional distress to her childhood. “I grew up in a passive aggressive family which only provided conditional love if I had good grades or was a gracious girl to relatives or was trophy material,” she stated. She added that she had also been suicidal at certain times and had been an alcoholic. Puiyi shared she felt she had been forced to be emotionally independent after she attempted to strike out alone. It didn’t help that those around her misunderstood her and her line of thinking.
“Nobody asks or sees the bigger picture behind my moves,” Puiyi wrote. “I am working hard to achieve my dreams with the limited resources I have, hoping I could change my fate if I worked harder.” It hit her especially hard after the incident of her nudes being leaked. “Friends cut ties with me when my nudes leaked but nobody tried to understand the truth behind it. Nobody texted me, asking “Are you alright” or at least saw the police reports,” she said. “My relatives called my family and said bad things, thinking I had been a bimbo. But in those 2 years that I moved out and worked, nobody ever called and asked if I am alright.”
This led to her having a general mistrust of people. “There is always a question of: “Will you stay if I have nothing,” in my mind whenever I meet someone new,” Puiyi confessed. “I have gotten used to being misunderstood. I strongly believe one can only see through (another’s) soul when one has nothing at all.” However, she’s slowly changing that by being true to herself and hoping others will accept her as she is.
Puiyi is also cherishing herself more, especially the parts of her which she views as brave and rebellious. “I am very thankful for my psychiatrist,” she added. Puiyi stated they had helped her “untie knots” in her heart. “I had to break down (and) apart, but I am glad I made it out alive,” she wrote. “It’s definitely not perfect, not ideal, but at least I am okay now.”
Her parting words to her fans showed her hope for her future and others. “If I can be raw (about) my feelings and thoughts and be brave (while) fighting on, so (can) you,” she said. “With love, Pui Yi.” Fans and followers were quick to leave words of encouragement of their own in the comments, with some sharing their personal stories.
Her personal posting is certainly a rare one. But it’s definitely one her followers appreciate. Fight on, Pui Yi!